why do I suck?

Trying to plan a party, but can't get ahold of people I want to go to it.

so that's. frustrating.
it's going to be the last time I see Kyle before I go back to school, too, so it has to happen.

but if I don't see him? I think I'll be okay.
He told me that he loves me last night.
We're going to try to have skype dates when we can.
I'm going to miss him so much, but I think we'll be okay.

this weekend.

Altogether, 2s2d was a giant success.
100+ attendees, 14 people in the costume contest. Everyone had fun.

things were absolutely crazy behind the scenes, but that's not something to talk about on a public blog. To the attendees, everything went great! so that's the important part.

anyone up for 3 seasons, 2 days?

AAAAAEGAEKLGNAREKNSA

FUCK CON IN TWO DAYS WHY AM I BLOGGING NO TIME FUCKFUCKFUCK

fffffff

EVERYONE IS IGNORING MEEEEEE

Pi-Con!

The con took all weekend which is why I haven't blogged in a few days. but it was an awesome fun time.

The panels were good, the gaming was fun, I met some cool new people.

And I saw Mike again. Wasn't so bad, actually. We ended up hanging out a bit and I felt very little towards him. Some anger, some hoping that he's doing okay, but no sort of romance or lust. Just okay, he's there, we're friends.
We really are friends. feels good to say that. feels good to really know that.

Although, I did slap him. I had to.
It felt /good/.

OW.

Cramps.
Cramps suck.
Cramps mean I have to work 7 hours in pain, come home and do more work in more pain.
Yoga helped slightly, and yay exercise, but OMG CRAMPS.

Cramps, and the accompanying nasty period, do mean one very important thing, however: I am not pregnant!
So yeah, yesterday's blog can be 100% ignorrrred

Tomorrow is Pi-Con! All weekend is Pi-Con!

and then Saturday/Sunday is seeing Mike again. I don't have a plan to see him, but I know he'll be there and it's a small convention.

I hope I don't cry.
...I'm going to cry.

I did love him. I can't honestly say now that I don't, but it's different. Kyle is the guy for me now, and I'm really happy with him. But Mike was important to me, and I do miss him. It will be undoubtedly hard to see him again.

I've been emailing him and it's been okay. But idk how seeing him will go.

That's maybe why I'm so stressed lately.

.

Here's the thing.
Every single month, I worry about my period being late.
Sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't. I'm under quite a bit of stress right now and that's going to make it worse.
but I'm going to worry.
It's going to come, I'm sure of it.
but the worry is still there.

I just want it to come and leave already.