Ponies!

I spent so much money on pony stuff today, but I had fun with some new brony people, so it was worth it.

Also, I finished Kyle's birthday present! it looks super good.

I am feeling really happy with my life now.

Today sucked.

I'm neurotic.

So here's what happened. A meetup was posted today in New York on a weekend I'm going back for Kyle's birthday.
I realized, he's probably going.
I realized, he probably won't tell me until after I've bought the bus tickets.

Then I realized if I press him, I could know earlier, and then I could maybe go too.

Then, the thought came to me that I just don't fit in with New York bronies. Would I like to spend a weekend in NY with my boyfriend? hell yeah! but they're his friends and they're not my friends.
Different friend groups is why Mike and I broke up. or at least part of the reason. I think.

I wondered for a moment if this is why I was trying so hard to be on Bronycon staff. Might have been, and I do realize that's not a good reason. Of course Kyle can have his own friends, I shouldn't try to weasel my way in on that.
Besides, I'm working on a con for GHL. I'm busy enough as it is.
So I decided you know what, I should let that go. No more trying to be on staff, I'll let that be.

And then I realized that if I don't get on staff (which I'll be honest! it was a long shot anyways) or even volunteer (which I can't because I'd be working under Kyle, and that's not a good situation) I won't be able to afford going to bronycon, which is kind of a huge deal.

which then led me to thinking that I am going to be cut off as soon as I graduate and not be able to afford anything anymore

and now I want to cry


kyle's probably going to find some other girl in new york
why would he want someone as neurotic as me

okay then

The Perry drama has come full circle.

I can't say everything, but yeah, Perry left our group.


I really hope he isn't reading this.

this weekend.

Altogether, 2s2d was a giant success.
100+ attendees, 14 people in the costume contest. Everyone had fun.

things were absolutely crazy behind the scenes, but that's not something to talk about on a public blog. To the attendees, everything went great! so that's the important part.

anyone up for 3 seasons, 2 days?

uuuuugh long day

So I didn't blog yesterday because I spent the night with Kyle.
I love spending time with him. a lot.
I got a bit clingy today at the meetup which I feel kind of bad about. but he seems okay with it.

hm.

I spent the afternoon crying and helping Kyle pack.

wow, sounds like he's moving far away, doesn't it? no. he's going to a different dorm.

The crying was a little bit him, mostly someone else. It's SO MUCH DRAMA and I can't even talk about it.

today

Today was fun and then it wasn't fun.
I'm sick of my liiiife

Meetup day!

I ran a meetup today and it was fun times.
Went to Kimball Farms, met a bunch of people, got ice cream, and played minigolf and arcade games.
Lost terribly at all the games, still had fun.
Saw some bees and didn't freak out! woohoo!

Brought everyone back to my house and we played some DDR, watched ponies.

It's been a good day.

Bronies are cool people.

Went to a meetup today. It was just a meeting to hang out, eat pizza and drink cider, and watch an episode. Plus we sang pony songs.

I'm tired now but it was a good day.

Talked to a guy. That was fun.

So very tired now. Maybe I should move blogging to earlier in the day? I'm always too tired to blog.

Somtimes I don't like being a girl.

Went to a brony meetup today. Only girl there.
This is not an unusual thing.

What was unusual was some of the guys were blatantly staring at me the whole time. Sometimes at my chest, sometimes just staring at me like "why is a girl here?"

It was uncomfortable and so I left early.

I don't want to be one of those girls who whines about being objectified and then turns around and asks for attention because of her looks. I'm not doing this to you, imaginary readers, because you don't know what I look like. But I do like to be thought of as pretty, and honestly, a subtle glance at my chest would have been kind of flattering.
But being stared at is just creepy. Tell me I'm pretty, fine. Wild sex fantasies about me? Sure, just don't let me know about them. Undressing me with your eyes when I'm stuck in a room with you and not stopping when I'm clearly skeeved out? NO. (unless you're Mike, but if you've read any other blog post here you know that won't happen.)

Other brony guys are great. Just not the ones today.

Long day

Things that happened today:
1. work
2. sat in traffic for an hour and a half
3. pony karaoke
4. pass out in exhaustion
5. not think about Mike. this makes it a good day.

Anddd I forgot to do an article thing yesterday, so here's one now:

Laura Jane Grace may not be a name you recognize. But maybe you have heard of Tom Gabel, lead singer of Against Me!

They’re actually the same person.

Tom Gabel has recently come out as transgendered, and plans to live her life as a woman. She’s hoping that her fans will accept her, and she plans on continuing to make music.

And it seems that so far, the fans don’t have a problem with her announcement. Comments from the fans are generally supportive, even if they sometimes use the wrong pronoun.

“good for him for being honest wish u a happy life Tom Gabel I love him”

“More power to her, that's some brave s--- right there.”

“Other people going through similar situations need to know they're not alone. “

The president of GLAAD (Gay & Lesbian Alliance Against Defamation) has said, “Tom is displaying extraordinary courage by coming out as transgender after already establishing herself as a rock star. For many of the band's fans, this may be the first time they're actually thinking about transgender people and the bravery it sometimes takes in order to be true to yourself.”

So what this situation comes to is that no one is angry with Tom for her decision. No one is offended. Her fans, many of whom do not understand what it means to be transgendered, support her and wish her the best.

Her brave announcement has proven that people can accept what society has long deemed unacceptable. Views of transgendered people are changing, and hopefully soon everyone will understand and accept them.

Work and stress

Here is a list of all I am currently working on:
-my actual job
-2 paid writing jobs (which I am so glad I've got but they do take time)
-working for my dad whenever he needs me to
-Lyra cosplay
-Celestia and Luna cosplay
-mane 6 gala dresses cosplay
-another cosplay that's a secret
-painting a Rainbow Dash on a camera case
-voice acting
-videos of myself singing for my youtube account
-cleaning out my basement
-a puzzle
-planning when I can go to meetups
-cooking dinner a few times a week
-creating a pony-based game
-this blog

Yeah, so my life would be a lot less busy if I wasn't working on anything pony related, but then that wouldn't be fun, would it? Seriously, most of my friends I now know through ponies.

but it's just a lot to do in what feels like absolutely no time.

Granitecon!

I went to granitecon today and it was a fun time.
Met a ton of other girls who are into ponies, and finally got enough girls to do a cosplay I've been planning.

aaand now I'm tired!

I have no more time ugh

Today has been LONG.
Got up at 5. Worked for seven hours. Took a break to catch up on things that I haven't done, and then went out to Boston to meet some bronies and watch the Venus transit. Didn't see the transit because it was cloudy, but we hung out at Starbucks and watched the webcast from NASA. Ran some errands after the meetup and made it home around 10.

And I've also agreed to do more writing work, more VA work, and now I'm taking painting commissions. In addition to continuing McDonald's and keeping up with exercising, seeing bronies on weekends, and eventually summer classes.

Well at least I'll be too busy to care about Mike, eh?

Talked to him.

I talked to Mike yesterday.
Didn't go as badly as I thought I would. I miss him a lot and I want him back, but it's nice to know that he's doing well, and that he does care how I'm doing.
I don't know if he misses me, but I hope he does.

I went to a roleplay with some bronies today and it was fun times.
but now I'm really tired.

So sore

Today was another brony meetup. it was fun but I am so sore from that hike yesterday.

It's actually really hard just to sit up and type this, so this will be an excessively short blog today.

I didn't meet any new guys today, boo. I was kind of hoping that I would. But I will be lending my voice to some pony videos, so at least I'm trying something new, working with guys. just not ones I'm interested in. I guess it's good practice to be able to talk to guys?

I'm really in a lot of pain. Tylenol wore off and my sunburn and bug bites are bothering me. So that's it for today.