things and stuff

My blog posts aren't creative anymore.

I turned down a job today, because it was a lot of work for not a lot pay, and it just all felt fishy.

did I do the right thing?

Applying for jobs is terrible.

I went to an interview at a restaurant today.
They kept me waiting for ten minutes and the interview only lasted for five.
I got the impression that the woman interviewing me just didn't like me for whatever reason. She promised to pass on my information to the actual hiring manager who was mysteriously not there for whatever reason, and then I would get an email asking for a background check and it would go from there.
Later this afternoon, I got an email informing me I was turned down for the job.

So what happened to passing on my information?

It's disheartening to know that I had the experience and the time available for the job, the reason I didn't get it was most likely just because this woman didn't like me.

And more job applications!

Today was more job applications. So many, but I think I'm done.
Except for the handful of online applications I remember I'm going to have to fill out. great.

By tomorrow, I'll be done. Then it's (hopefully) time for interviews.

I haven't thought about Mike much today. It hurts still, but it's really not a constant on my mind.
Right now, I'm missing the physical part most actually. I liked being kissed.

Well crap, now I'm thinking about him and it's hurting more.

I'm just going to cut this post short and go back to watching Wife Swap.

Job applications

Today I went to a job interview at Macy's. I was told if I didn't have to go back to school, I could have worked there.
oh well.

The Macy's was in a mall that I last went to with Mike. I found it hard not to cry over him while I was there, but I managed. No tears.
Not to say that I haven't cried today, I just didn't do it in public.
I was mad at him for a little while today. I thought if I saw him I would punch him in his stupid face for leaving me.
Now I'm not so mad, but I miss him a lot. I miss having someone to talk to about everything all the time. I miss feeling that anything I plan in the future, I won't be alone. Now I'm scared I'll be alone for years.

Today is hard.

Today has been a long and crazy day.
I got up early to drive my mom to work so I could have the car for the day. Then I went back to sleep.
Got up again, went out searching for jobs. Applied at a day camp for kids--it looks just like this place that I used to go to as a kid, Discovery Zone. That would be an awesome place to work.
Went to a restaurant, didn't apply. They were closed and something about the area just made me feel eh.
Went to a game store, was told they weren't hiring, but I bought a game anyways.
I just wanted my own copy of Bang, okay?

Then, I rehearsed some songs for the community theater auditions I'll be going to. I unpacked a bit, washed some clothes, made an appointment for one job interview and turned down another (they could only offer 6-10 hours a week), and drove back out to pick my mom up from work.

I am exhausted. I'm excited at all the new prospects I have--auditions! job interviews!
but I miss him so much that I'm not as happy as I should be.

Luckily, I saw some Ben & Jerry's in the freezer, so that'll cheer me up.