Games and Storms

I joined Steam today. Not sure how well I like it so far though.
And there was supposedly the big hurricane today! Nothing happened.

too much work

Today I am just tired.
So many classes and so much work and I'm really getting burned out.
Does it get easier after this, or harder?

hopefully whatever job I get when I graduate won't require me to be working from 11am to 11pm.
I just have SO MUCH to do!
2 days to write a paper ggagargane;gjanre;gjbar;iojrbagikanegbjar e kfgrafgj

things and stuff

My blog posts aren't creative anymore.

I turned down a job today, because it was a lot of work for not a lot pay, and it just all felt fishy.

did I do the right thing?

I just wrote about fonts for a full hour

workworkworkwork
Kyle is a nice guy. He's being really sweet to me lately when I'm whining about shit.
I wish I knew more what was going on with him though. He doesn't talk much about himself.

Guys just don't really do that, though, it seems. He listens to me, and he knows I'll listen to him if he wants to talk about whatever. So that's good enough.

today.

mmm it's a day.
Working on Kyle's birthday present. it's more difficult than anticipated but it's still good.

sweat.

I just did some exercise and it wasn't too fun, but I needed it.
Now to make some pizza for dinner!

things are getting okay.

I got my homework done (although tomorrow's is looking INSANE) and I have things done.
I'm on track.

Plus I had some Kyle time.

I miss him but talking to him is good.

Bad bad bad day

I don't feel like going through all this again, I'll just copy/paste what I wrote to Kyle.

[5:43:33 PM] just.steph: I'm gonna talk at you anyways. I cried at work today.
[5:44:18 PM] just.steph: I have one manager who I hate working with because he doesn't even try to talk to me. He gets my attention by snapping his fingers and then just kind of waves at whatever I'm supposed to take care of. And then he yells at me when I inevitably mess up whatever I was doing because I didn't understand him in the first place!
[5:45:43 PM] just.steph: and then I get home and try to work on my stuff and my computer breaks. it's an easy fix but I made the mistake of whining in mane chat and that set off Perry, and that is why I'm now gone from there.
[5:46:52 PM] just.steph: and on top of this, I feel fat today. doesn't help any.
[5:48:55 PM] just.steph: and there was a bit of good news-my article for a website people have actually heard of was accepted with minimal corrections. I can keep writing for this site and get paid up to $50 per article. it's really worth it. but among all the crap, it feels like even if I told people about this, no one would care.

Of course, Kyle hasn't responded to any of this. because he's tired from his own long day. I understand that and I'll let him be without bugging him any more than all that up there. but it'd still be nice to get a bit of sympathy from him. or from anyone.
instead my parents just ignore me because I'm apparently whining and they can't stand to listen to me.

I'm sweaty.

I just finished working out. now I'm sweaty.

I'm tired. bleh.

Goodbye time

I miss having free time.
I had a day off from work or friends for the first time in probably about a month.
And I still didn't get all my shit done.

Maybe it'll be better when I go back to school. Instead of spending 8 hours a day working, it'll be more like 5. I know, homework takes a long time, but I'm much more prepared to handle that.

Stress melting away

Well part of the lack of stress is that my internship is over. I'm working on my online class, but that's much less to think about.
Part of it is things are good with Kyle and will stay good for a long while.
Part of it is I have a good dinner right here.
and part of it is just it's time to stop being stressed. At some point, you know, you have to stand up and say no, I'm not going to worry about this. I'll get everything done and I'll be awesome doing it.

I've said that.

work work work

Got out of McDonald's early today, which means more time to focus on finishing up this online internship I'm doing.
I need to write 3 articles by tomorrow.
So close. 2 done, 4 hours till bed.
I got this.

but damn do my hands hurt.

when will I not be tired?

I'm guessing never again.

oh well. I'm an accomplished person now, really.
I manage to handle schoolwork (oh shit, forgot that, will be doing as soon as I finish this post) and actual work and con stuff and my own projects and keep deadlines.
It's a lot to do, but I'm managing it.
and keeping a boyfriend at the same time!

how? no sleep.

All Work and No Pay

I haven't been to McDonald's for 4 days because I've been sick.
but I've been craaaazy busy.

This con better be fucking worth it is all I can say.

Today's website!
https://www.jasminejade.com/t-writerscircle.aspx
Submission guidelines for erotica. in the case I ever want to write erotica.
...which honestly I kind of do, just can't really make myself do it.

Long day

Up at 5, blogging at 10:30.
I worked 8 hours, drove into Boston then all over the North Shore hunting for ponies.
Did not find ponies.
Sad.

Annette's here and we're hanging out. That's a fun time.

ugh

Look, it's been a long day at work, my schedule's all fucked up, and I don't want to talk to anyone, including an imaginary blog audience.

so fuck you very much today.

Long day at work.

Today was a crazy busy and crazy long day.
I'm getting better about Mike though. I'm still thinking about him, but not all the time, and it hurts a lot less.

There's still times when I just start crying over him, but they're a lot fewer now.

Long day

I got to leave work 2 hours early today. Means I got to do more during the day, but somehow that made the day a lot longer.

I've been missing Mike again. idk if I'll stop missing him.

I went to grab a new site from my favorites list for this weekly thing that I remembered to do today, and turns out that the site I had favorited was Mike's wishlist on ThinkGeek.
I used to buy him stuff from there a lot. it was fun giving him things.
I deleted it from my favorites.

So today's actual site:
http://iheartnymuseums.com/
I'm not a New Yorker. Not even at heart. But I want to be. I want to walk through the streets like it's no big deal and ride the subway everywhere, piss stink and all. But I only get to visit the city maybe twice a year at most.
This site shows a lot of things that I'd like to see in New York that aren't the typical touristy things. But some are.
And not gonna lie, I love being a tourist too.

Busy busy busy

THERE IS SO MUCH TO DO AND SO LITTLE TIME TO DO IT IN
WHY DO I HAVE TO WORK SO MUCH

Bad Day

1. woke up at 5
2. worked with the manager that I don't really like too much
3. worked 8 hours
4. bought a drink on my break and had it thrown away before I was done
5. found out my computer sucks and one of my programs has stopped working
6. the only way to repair it may be to install a new os
7. this made me had a panic attack

but everything is somehow okay now

website day:  http://4hcomic.com/?p=104
I get bingo almost every discussion now.