Long day

I'm really sick of all my classes. All of them, even the writing ones.
How long till the semester's over?
6 weeks.
Only 3.5 weeks of classes though.

Okay, maybe I can handle it.
How many times do I get to go home and/or see Kyle over those 6 weeks?
At least 3. Maybe 4.
That's not bad.

Games and Storms

I joined Steam today. Not sure how well I like it so far though.
And there was supposedly the big hurricane today! Nothing happened.

too much work

Today I am just tired.
So many classes and so much work and I'm really getting burned out.
Does it get easier after this, or harder?

hopefully whatever job I get when I graduate won't require me to be working from 11am to 11pm.
I just have SO MUCH to do!
2 days to write a paper ggagargane;gjanre;gjbar;iojrbagikanegbjar e kfgrafgj

things and stuff

My blog posts aren't creative anymore.

I turned down a job today, because it was a lot of work for not a lot pay, and it just all felt fishy.

did I do the right thing?

dreams

I had a bizarre dream about Kyle last night that today is just throwing me off.
it would be better if I could talk to him, but knowing him, he won't be online for a while.

pie yum.

I made a pie today.
in an hour and a half I'll know how good it is.

I hope it's delicious.

Ponies!

I spent so much money on pony stuff today, but I had fun with some new brony people, so it was worth it.

Also, I finished Kyle's birthday present! it looks super good.

I am feeling really happy with my life now.

Migraines suck

My head has been pounding since yesterday.
sensitive to light and loud noises, and just constantly hungry.
Did you know hunger was a migraine symptom? I didn't. but apparently it is!

It's already a lot better than it was yesterday, but I'm still not feeling great today.
tomorrow will hopefully be better.

PAIN

God my head hurts so bad.
I was stuck in a tiny unventilated room with games club people.
and some of them were painting miniatures in there.

you do not open paints in an unventilated room goddamit

I just wrote about fonts for a full hour

workworkworkwork
Kyle is a nice guy. He's being really sweet to me lately when I'm whining about shit.
I wish I knew more what was going on with him though. He doesn't talk much about himself.

Guys just don't really do that, though, it seems. He listens to me, and he knows I'll listen to him if he wants to talk about whatever. So that's good enough.

Sneezy

I hate sneezing.
Why am I sneezing so much lately?
ACHOO

craaaaaaaaaaamps

Craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamps

also I got kicked out of a singing contest today and that makes me a sad.

I'm not good at this.

if I actually remembered to blog every single day, would I have more readers?
or do I need longer posts?

or advertising might be helpful.

today.

mmm it's a day.
Working on Kyle's birthday present. it's more difficult than anticipated but it's still good.

home again, home again

I went home for the weekend. it was a good weekend.
I spent some time with brony people, some time with family, and a lot of time with Kyle. I like Kyle time.

I think that somehow, this long distance thing really is working. So I can only see him a couple times a month. We're both so busy that the time's flying by.
And we talk enough that it's okay. I don't need him around to know that he cares.

I'm okay.

Today sucked.

I'm neurotic.

So here's what happened. A meetup was posted today in New York on a weekend I'm going back for Kyle's birthday.
I realized, he's probably going.
I realized, he probably won't tell me until after I've bought the bus tickets.

Then I realized if I press him, I could know earlier, and then I could maybe go too.

Then, the thought came to me that I just don't fit in with New York bronies. Would I like to spend a weekend in NY with my boyfriend? hell yeah! but they're his friends and they're not my friends.
Different friend groups is why Mike and I broke up. or at least part of the reason. I think.

I wondered for a moment if this is why I was trying so hard to be on Bronycon staff. Might have been, and I do realize that's not a good reason. Of course Kyle can have his own friends, I shouldn't try to weasel my way in on that.
Besides, I'm working on a con for GHL. I'm busy enough as it is.
So I decided you know what, I should let that go. No more trying to be on staff, I'll let that be.

And then I realized that if I don't get on staff (which I'll be honest! it was a long shot anyways) or even volunteer (which I can't because I'd be working under Kyle, and that's not a good situation) I won't be able to afford going to bronycon, which is kind of a huge deal.

which then led me to thinking that I am going to be cut off as soon as I graduate and not be able to afford anything anymore

and now I want to cry


kyle's probably going to find some other girl in new york
why would he want someone as neurotic as me

Today

Today isn't over quite yet. But I finished my stuff up early enough to be able to write this post early.



so today will be interesting. Playtesting MLP Fluxx in ghl tonight.
Firefox's spellcheck recognized only two of those words.

Long long long day

Backpack + 5 lb textbook + laptop + 20 minute walk = terribly sore shoulder.

I need a massage like now.

things and stuff.

Yesterday wasn't too interesting, neither was today.

I got toys. for Kyle.

I'm doing okay in classes.

Honestly I just want to finish up this post and get back to watching Serenity.