Tuesday, July 31, 2012


Look, I do love my grandma, but sometimes it's extremely frustrating to have another person around and I can't be me.
I can't watch what I want on TV and I can't do my normal things.
and I can't just leave to do what I want because then I'm not "socializing".

Let's be honest, fucking socializing is the worst.

Monday, July 30, 2012

What now?

It feels weird, my internship being over and now I have a lot less to do.
I get paid in 2 days.

I got out of work an hour early. I like getting out of work early.

I have nothing to do and it's just. weird.

Sunday, July 29, 2012


I unexpectedly lost internet this weekend.
hence the lack of posting.

in other news, spent the night with Kyle and it was a great night.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Stress melting away

Well part of the lack of stress is that my internship is over. I'm working on my online class, but that's much less to think about.
Part of it is things are good with Kyle and will stay good for a long while.
Part of it is I have a good dinner right here.
and part of it is just it's time to stop being stressed. At some point, you know, you have to stand up and say no, I'm not going to worry about this. I'll get everything done and I'll be awesome doing it.

I've said that.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

work work work

Got out of McDonald's early today, which means more time to focus on finishing up this online internship I'm doing.
I need to write 3 articles by tomorrow.
So close. 2 done, 4 hours till bed.
I got this.

but damn do my hands hurt.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012


I went to hang out with Kyle today. We had a whole evening together planned.
Then his friends (well also my friends, really, but they're closer with him) called up and invited him for a night out drinking.

I could have gone, they did invite me, but I had shit to do. But I still got my time in bed with Kyle and I got to have dinner with him.
of course the dinner was with Logan hanging around and they were talking about con stuff I'm not supposed to know about...

can I just say though, I've suddenly stumbled into having a place in the brony fandom. I'm dating one of the council members of Bronycon. And I...am not sure if I can say what else I'm doing. No one reads this blog. but just in case.

But yeah. it's cool having a spot. Maybe I'll eventually get to the point that people know who I am? Probably not. But I get to know some things before other people.

Not that I'll tell you.

Monday, July 23, 2012


Today was fun and then it wasn't fun.
I'm sick of my liiiife

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Working for people

All I have to say about today is PEOPLE GIVE ME GAS MONEY. YOU OWE ME.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Today was long and great

I spent WAY too much money today ugh
but it was worth it. I got all the blindbag ponies.
I spent a lot of time with Kyle.
That was more worth it.

The next week is going to be a Kyle week.  I get to see him five days. :D

I don't know why I'm falling for him so much so fast, but it's a crazy ride and I'm loving every minute of this.

Friday, July 20, 2012

Today is sad.

Look normally I just whine about my life, but let's whine about something else today.

The Batman shooting. Is that what people are calling it? you know what I mean. The shooting at the premiere of the Batman movie.
It's sad. it's way more important than my work troubles. People are dead and while they know who did it, they don't know why.
Shooting always seems like a personal thing. It's murder, and you expect that the murderer has a connection with his victim.

But this time, this guy just shot randomly. Didn't know his victims. Didn't care.
That's gotta be hard for the families. Their loved one is dead and there is no reason.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

when will I not be tired?

I'm guessing never again.

oh well. I'm an accomplished person now, really.
I manage to handle schoolwork (oh shit, forgot that, will be doing as soon as I finish this post) and actual work and con stuff and my own projects and keep deadlines.
It's a lot to do, but I'm managing it.
and keeping a boyfriend at the same time!

how? no sleep.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Bad Day Turned Good

I had a crap day.
No sleep, work was slow periods followed by crazy busy periods, got yelled at, then had three people drop out of a project I'm doing.

so I started venting to Kyle.
he invited me over.
He's amazing at making me feel better. he said I'm beautiful and sexy and it's great just knowing that he really likes me. for me.
And I really like him too. We work well together.

Anyways when I got back home, we had two new people joining the project and picking up the weight. Thank you new people!

and thank you Kyle. :)

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

All Work and No Pay

I haven't been to McDonald's for 4 days because I've been sick.
but I've been craaaazy busy.

This con better be fucking worth it is all I can say.

Today's website!
Submission guidelines for erotica. in the case I ever want to write erotica.
...which honestly I kind of do, just can't really make myself do it.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Mike found out about Kyle.
It's just. awkward.
But it shouldn't be. Mike and I are friends, and I'm really happy with Kyle.
It's not like I was keeping Kyle a secret.

Although Kyle doesn't really know I'm talking to Mike. I'm not exactly keeping that a secret either. It just hasn't come up in conversation.

Why do I feel kind of wrong about this? I don't have feelings for Mike anymore. I can say that completely honestly now.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

I'm not good at remembering this

Life keeps happening and blog keeps being forgotten.

but it's been a busy weekend. Annette came over and we hung out and finished up her costume.
Kyle and I have been talking and flirting and I like having a boyfriend again.

Friday, July 13, 2012

Long day

Up at 5, blogging at 10:30.
I worked 8 hours, drove into Boston then all over the North Shore hunting for ponies.
Did not find ponies.

Annette's here and we're hanging out. That's a fun time.

Thursday, July 12, 2012


Kyle is officially my boyfriend now!

so yeah, I'm in a good mood.

What do I do with this blog now? It was intended to chronicle getting over Mike, and now I've moved on already.

I'm gonna keep going. Who knows if this turns out to be a rebound or what.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

More dentist fun

By fun I mean not fun at all.
2 shots, more drilling, but my teeth finally look good and I think that it's done.
...except one of the veneers feels loose now.


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Back to Canobie

Today I went back to Canobie.
Was not as fun without friends.
I like my family, but eh. if I'd gone with just my cousins probably would've been more fun.

Monday, July 9, 2012


I don't know what to think today. Haven't heard from Kyle at all.

I'm telling myself that you know, he works, he's not feeling well, he has a million reasons for not being online. And it's not like he's ignoring me--he's not talking to anyone.

He's never been too talkative before. I just thought maybe since we are a something now? he'd at least say hi.

He did say yesterday that I didn't have to worry about losing him. We've been talking about things we're doing together in the future. There's no sign of our something ending.

Why can't I stop thinking about him?

Sunday, July 8, 2012

I'm not so lonely anymore.

Um...I didn't post yesterday.
Why? because I have a new guy. His name is Kyle, and apparently he's liked me since I met him over a month ago at my first brony meetup. He's amazing.
We're dating now, but not exactly a couple yet.

he's just great.

I'm happy.

Friday, July 6, 2012


Look, it's been a long day at work, my schedule's all fucked up, and I don't want to talk to anyone, including an imaginary blog audience.

so fuck you very much today.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Long day at work.

Today was a crazy busy and crazy long day.
I'm getting better about Mike though. I'm still thinking about him, but not all the time, and it hurts a lot less.

There's still times when I just start crying over him, but they're a lot fewer now.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Happy 4th!

It's the 4th of July and I've been up since 6.
My feet hurt. :(

but I'm in a pretty good mood.

Yesterday my cousin proclaimed that Mike is a "buttnugget" and that is totally something I agree with.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012


I've got family coming to visit today and I'm excited.
So yeah.

Cried over Mike today, but in a pretty good mood now.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Long day

I got to leave work 2 hours early today. Means I got to do more during the day, but somehow that made the day a lot longer.

I've been missing Mike again. idk if I'll stop missing him.

I went to grab a new site from my favorites list for this weekly thing that I remembered to do today, and turns out that the site I had favorited was Mike's wishlist on ThinkGeek.
I used to buy him stuff from there a lot. it was fun giving him things.
I deleted it from my favorites.

So today's actual site:
I'm not a New Yorker. Not even at heart. But I want to be. I want to walk through the streets like it's no big deal and ride the subway everywhere, piss stink and all. But I only get to visit the city maybe twice a year at most.
This site shows a lot of things that I'd like to see in New York that aren't the typical touristy things. But some are.
And not gonna lie, I love being a tourist too.

Sunday, July 1, 2012


Went shopping today.
Got a lot of skimpy lingerie type stuff.
It was nice that I wasn't even wondering if Mike would have liked it. I just bought what I liked.